Friday, August 19, 2011

Strangers

Strangers

He watches me from underneath the apple blossom tree,
stands in his suit and tie, plum velvet and starched shirt,
like a Japanese foreigner against the hyper-blue of the sky,
the ragged green grass over-sharpened and aggressive,
and he looks defeated under those windswept branches,
bent boughs dusting his forehead in a petal and leaf crown
of apricot and pink and dusk-rose

I watch him from underneath the long-fingered uncut-nail clouds,
stand up against the window in my mother’s foam cashmere,
bare wood bruising the bones of my feet
as the brush of denim makes me feverish and my skin itch;
I use him and the window, framing my life in spare inches and eyes
as the walls slump inwards like yellow rice pudding
and I begin the act of eating distance

I let down my hair for him
that we could kiss, and trace buttons out of fabric loops
to release my hips to the damp shape of moist air,
which is not enough to keep my hands from hemlines and sleeves,
and I lean on the sill and we make love, he and I
until dark nips his heels and runs its hands across my haunches
and like a beautiful animal I mouth words,
small things he will never make out from the ground:
my name and how it is I love so many
strangers

Thursday, August 18, 2011

God wrote two books



God wrote two books


I.
The insides of my skin are singing
as summer runs like lilies in rain

My blood maps my body in new patterns
many times a day,
and each wash and remaking
brings the veins closer to happiness
and collapse

II.
I hold the toad long enough to tell him all my quiet fears,
he seems to like that some,
pushes his dry soft belly against my palm,
nosing the spaces between my fingers,
asking me where my webbing’s
got to, and have I lost it along with everything else?

Down in the dirt,
his jelly cheeks brush outward into night air
as he tries to hold me with his sticky slick toes,
but he is very small
and I too human to condense to his caress,
so he leaves me with one final frog-lipped kiss
and pulls away over grass and weed

The worms are better listeners
and beautiful by starlight,
their organ skin dark and lustrous
under the moon glow

I watch them bully the dirt into helixes     
and half circles for their over-hearted
bodies to languish beneath—
they are all going someplace,
and I whisper to them some of my sadness,
that they may carry off pieces
to places far away from me

The grass is best of all,
and that is because it makes me up:
I know that veins aren’t so much hollow
spaghetti straws as they are fibrous
weeds knitted up under my skin
as like worms they tunnel their way
through dark cells,
mounting into stalk highways,
breaking over lips,
fanning out into the thirsty mouths of my organs

I pull a strand of grass from the ground,
and it says a reluctant farewell
in the same way my hair speaks to my scalp—
I know that this means we’re really all the same,
the toad, the worms, the living dirt,
and if I’m logical, then I’d also know
that if I lie here long enough
the human parts break down
as every little fiber and wet thing takes them in,
sucks them up, slickens themselves with feeling
and bumps away like the toad

And then I say goodbye too
to all the human bits
and hello to the dirt, the toad,
the worms and all the places
they have always meant to take me